RASA, Ramaji, shaktipat

At first, spiritual practice
felt like increasing control.

Morality.
Ethics.
Sila.

This lasted for years,
and it felt good.

I am a good person.
I can trust myself.
Others can trust me.

Etc.

Then the first break came.

And I was nobody.

Spaciosness.
Clarity.
Peace.

For about 15 minutes.

Then back to this life,
but as nobody

With the idea
that now
I had the secret to world peace.

Six years later
came the third movement
after beating
my nondual head
against innumerable
nonbrick walls

RASA

upends the apple cart
of the nonworld
this nobody enjoyed

Which cart
which way
which

domination fades
desire for control fades
insistence fades

what was it
that was so imprtant
it had to happen
when ?

fear dissolves

so much of life
runs off the energy of fear

fear floats up
like a turd
in the toilet bowl

un-ignorable
obvious
plain

what’s left
still here
360 degrees

open
unbounded
immenant

 

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Forgiveness: The Missing Link of Practice

Why is Metta / Lovingkindness so ” hard ” ?

Why is it even a “thing ” for practitioners ?

Practitioners are self-selected, interested, motivated.

Do they not wish to broadcast loving  energy to the world,
and to everyone they know ?

Where is the issue then ?

Glaring out
from the depths of meditation
(or in some cases, the shallow shoals)
awaits unforgiveness.

Resentment.
Judgement.
Mental rigidity.

Not “allowing”
the other person to be.

Someone made a mistake
in the past
and now
they do not “deserve”
to be released from that condemnation.

There is actually an ebook entirely devoted to this problem.

If you are like many seekers
there remains someone
or several someones
who definitely deseerve condemnation

some event from the past
you cannot let go of

something
you simply cannot
get passed.

For Bhante Vimalaramsi,
that is exactly where practice begins.

Forgiveness practice
allows lovingkindness
the space it needs
to expand.

Without it,
lovingkindness
doesn’t make it
off the ground.

Lovingkindness is the other wing
of the dual wings
of awakening;
emptiness and lovingkindness.

Metta / Loviing-kindness Meditation

Loving-Kindness & the 6 Rs

Image from here.

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Ex Nihilo

Don’t tell me

I am space
we are space
space is all there is

I feel solid objects
I feel emotions
I know what I think
I don’t believe what you are saying
I believe in science
I am myself

Science finds space and energy, only
no objects
no matter
no ego center in the brain = no “you ”

Science shamefacedly shows up the sham
There are no nouns, anywhere
The universe is
a collective of processes

you
are
a
verb

Verbs are motion
Existence
Energy
Being

All else is
mere interpretation
appearence and
stories

made up
ex nihilo
by storytelling apes*

Drawing from here.

* this one included

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promised land: stories from awakeville

the promised land
lacks nothing
filled with food, wine,
money, sex,
and wi-fi

the promised land
the grand reward
for those who persevere

overflowing
with the wanted
and the worth-its

the promised land
more real than real
MUST
hold no fault nor flaw

Eden-Paradise-Utopia
is like that
ideal
shiny
clean

at what cost
does one arrive?

what’s the bridge toll?
nothing real is free

turns out
the toll
weighs heavy on the mind

something
the rich
fail to mention

pretending
it never was
the eye of a needle

who is surprised?
what did I think?
how was I disappointed?

the free that’s worth having
and costs nothing
lives in fairy tales
and children’s movies

even a mother’s breast milk
readily given with love
costs the energy
of a baby’s cry

but you don’t understand-
you don’t see-
I’m losing my mind,
my nouns,
my treasured memory

sure, I want the Absolute
the All-That-Is
God’s Face
Nibanna

And I want to stay as I was-
comfortable
untroubled
unbothered

Dark nights are for others
stuttering over parts of speech
losing track of time
dissolving ambitions, projects, plans
those are for someone else

I’ll take the hand of the Infinite
as long
as it is convenient

if I don’t set
the terms, the time, the rules
then
why should I play
this silly game ?

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stories from awakeville are chunks of free verse
derived from post awakening inner experience

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ice walk: stories from awakeville

brittle splitting
of frozen crystals

spider veins
radiate outward
jagged, wild

no one to fall through
the thinned ice today

the ice splits
nonetheless

some weight
made the ice split

whose ?

who hears
the brittle snapping
all around
so far
from the lake shore ?

death waits
barely
one more instant
as the rotten ice
gives way

I have been through this before

I didn’t survive

wtf ?

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stories from awakeville are chunks of free verse
focussed on post awakening inner experience

Image from here.

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simulacrum : stories from awakeville

the wide open spaciousness
of awakeville
didn’t need a golem

but mind
made one anyway
without telling anyone

the golem was translucent
and easy to miss

he could do most things
the old me could do
and better

secretly,
the golem was welcome

after all,
he was mine

one day,
the golem made a mistake

what’s wrong with the golem ?

a quick search of golem lit
revealed
golems have no particular lifespan

since they are not alive to begin with
the golem could malfunction
and stop
at almost any time

one day
it would be
for good

the golem tripped, fell,
slowly got back up, and
started walking
the wrong way

uh-oh.

the golem is running down.

he has shown himself
so terribly useful
at so may things
how he will be missed

the golem
of my attributes
my collection of the good
and the worthwhile

dissassembling
before my eyes

another precious mind creation

so much
for what
I thought

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stories from awakeville are chunks of free verse
derived from post awakening inner experience

Golem definition.

Golem image.

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no land in sight

no land in sight by dominic 724

 

everyone

is looking for

a lighthouse, a beacon, a buoy,

s o m e t h i n g

to tell us

we are going the right way

….

it helps

to imagine

we have friends

along the journey

especially

someone who claims

to know

whats going on

….

at the end of the day

we are all

still

just human beings

feeling our way

in the dark

 

 

Photo from here.

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Four Awake Teachers on Video

Culadasa, author of The Mind Illuminated shares 5 insights into the nondual / awake life. I have met Culadasa many times, including at his home, the last time in 2016 at the Toward A Science of Consciousness Conference in Tucson, AZ.

He strikes me as an amazing, intelligent and very humble teacher.

Byron Katie, inventor of the inquiry process known as “The Work”, walks an intrepid inquirer through the process of confronting her fears. Love and wisdom in action.

Shinzen Young briefly explains Dzogchen and why practice it in clear, direct language.

Tsultrim Allione on the “Feeding Your Demons” practice. I have practiced this on retreat and found it wonderfully penetrating.

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transpersonal

transpersonal
by dominic724

 

meeting apparent others

across

far scattered time zones
views and traditions
locations of mind

bearing witness

to

pain of experience
subtle confusion
distinct imbalances

of

vision, emotion, and body

each in turn
standing naked
speaking bare-hearted

simple, plain

unencumbered
by self-image

allowing love

as

ground of meeting
medicine for therapy
solvent of dissolution

love

dissolves
affirms
energizes
heals

love appears
from a placeless place
where it already lives

to a placeless place
in the lived moment
of each life

we are

touched
dissolved
melted

integral
whole
un-seperate

in

flourish of spiraling color
flash of fire’s geometric dance
prismatic waves of energy

all

enriching, transforming
mind, mood, emotion
rapt, brilliant, ecstatic

Self healing It-Self

of wounds
that never
happened

seeing-knowing

Self
in the other

as

Self
in the self

transpersonal

crossing

every
intimate
imaginary
boundary

more vivid power
than cold images
can capture

more impact
than whatever dream
here appears

more joy
than surprise
ever needed

losing utter track
of who I
and they
are supposed
to be

what’s left
when we are
what we are

accepted
empowered
free

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Dedicated with deep gratitude to Lester Levenson, to all who draw inspiration from him, in particular the Wednesday Night EC Lester Levenson group, without who it could not have been written. Love to all.

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The Rafting Trip

The Rafting Trip
by Peter Tjeerdsma

Life has been
a whitewater rafting trip
for the personality I wear
at this time.

Restful pools of chilling depth . . .
relaxing . . .
just long enough
to dump me

over another fall
through an uncontrollable attachment

I cling to my raft,
my identity
that bouys me up.

Nothing works
no goal
but to get through

hands slipping
on my ego-paddle

I push away
from a huge rock
rearing up in my path
only to slam backwards
into a small one.

Dazed,
I recall
I am not alone
in this raft.

The guide says,
“Relax,
keep your oars in the water,
look downstream,
and simply steer.”

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The Rafting Trip is an original expression of Peter Tjeerdsma,
first posted in the Buddhist forum on The Well in 1994.

The Rafting Trip is Peter Tjeerdsma’s initial contribution to SIOF;
many thanks to him for it.

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